Dear A.K,
Maybe you will read this someday,
maybe you won’t.
I haven’t been myself lately.
Thinking about all the puzzles in my life and the common factor through all of them.
It wasn’t clear at first but the more I spend my time with you, the more I realise how much of a mess the past 6 years have been.
We were young and naive.
Falling in love with the first thing that kept our hearts dancing.
That was never the case for you and me.
You kept mine calm through tough times and you breathe hope in me.
I viewed you as my friend, my sister, the one whom I shared my secrets with.
You were my other half, an exact equal of my capabilities.
I dated your best-friend thinking she could be the one for me. But that isn’t the case right now.
While she is happy with someone else, you stayed through and helped me ease my heartache.
Now I am trying to stay as what I am suppose to be, the guy you view as your close friend and family.
It’s harder right now, seeing you with a guy who doesn’t deserve your inner beauty. While you cling to him due to the fact that you think none other will accept you for who you are within.
I can’t change that and I respect your decisions truthfully but I can’t stay around with this heart filled with raging jealousy.
It’s been a long time coming, I’ve been in love with you but I just won’t admit it.
Before anyone gets hurt, I’ll walk away.
You deserve the best girl, I am gonna miss you terribly.
